with vibrancy of character
as i’ve said, i fully intend to quit my current job in two weeks’ time. my superiors only notice the mistakes i make. when i do something right, it makes no difference because it is expected that i do things right. its ridiculous. i end up getting an earful from my direct superior daily.
today i actually got praised by a customer. he must have felt rather curious about a young girl working in a predominantly male car garage. he asked me if i was a temp. i said yes. he then replied that it was plain to his eyes i was a temp, but that i did my work with sincere conscientiousness. lol at that moment i was still wondering whether he was actually complimenting me, so i just smiled at him and couldn’t thank him in time. but that was very nice of him, to give me a boost like that.
in my pockets of idleness at work (which come in daily, frequent spurts) i’ve thought about what taking up a temporary job is supposed to mean. money alone? social connections? learning new skills? what would you prioritise over all others?
by realising that i cannot stand working in my current job for 6 months, i’ve realised also that money alone cannot sway me to sell my time to a job.
i’ve heard from a peer doing temporary office admin work that she has to work overtime every day. i would not stand for that. i think its crazy how a job can consume practically your whole life. its just unhealthy.
i thought about how, if what i would value most from a working experience were an interesting experience and learning new skills, then maybe i should try hunting for a spot in a bubble tea outlet. since i have already reckoned that one day i will buy my own bubble tea machine and brew my own bubble tea at home, and it would be interesting to learn how to brew the one beverage i’m obsessed with. but its weird when i think about myself doing that. i know well enough it would be a tiring job, since i’d mostly have to be on my feet the entire day, and it would still pay lower than the typical office admin job.
the most fundamental thing is that a job i commit to should be able to make me happy in at least some way, except i’m not sure which factors this happiness may arise from.
my peers in their own respective holiday jobs are sharing their grouses about their jobs, and along with my own experience, i’m starting to lose faith in the existence of an ideal job. a job you can feel happy doing, which also pays you well.
how should i angle my job search from now on?
also, one insight i have gained from my current job is that the best way to make money is to be your own boss. so i don’t see why we can’t all dream a little bigger, beyond the seductive “safety” of the office job. it doesn’t have to be an office job.